Valentine's Day Plans?

Valentine's Day is Sunday, Anyone got any big plans? I know I sure don't. I will be spending that supposed romantic day by myself. I think I might be mad if John was going off to do something stupid, but seems how he is going to sacrament with Matt and Mary to hear the talk of a family friend who just got home from her mission I think I will let it slide this time. ;) but next year, It better be good honey! **Hint Hint**

You know I don't even think we have actually celebrated this holiday more than once. Lol. Boy my husband is slacking on this day I would say, wouldn't you? I will admitt this is more a womans holiday than any other but still. What woman wouldn't want an extra special day to spend with their sweetie?
John dodged a bullet though this year, cause yes you guessed it, I'M SICK. Which I would have to say would totally put a damper on things if we did have plans. There is nothing more unattractive and nonromantic than someone coughing and sniffling the whole time.

For all of those who are doing something special, I hope you have a great day with that special someone! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! (On Sunday)

Vegas Anyone?

        Why yes we are going to Vegas over the 19th-22nd! I am pretty excited to get a vacation.  I think I'd go about anywhere at this point. It is definitely needed. We are gonna go with Matt and Mary. Between them and John they had this whole weekend planned out and then John surprised me with it on Saturday. So yay for them for doing this. :)

Not much has gone on with us to really write about, so I don't really have anything good for you all. We are going to get a good tax return, thats something I guess. We are gonna use part of that money and buy us a Mac desktop and printer. We are really excited about that. Then all thats left after that is to get us some internet which we are pricing out now so all in good time people all in good time. :)

Wesley and Drawers :)

Wesley decided to take a little nap in the kitchen drawer this morning. I couldn't find him so I started calling him and looking around and well this is what I found. Him. Sleeping. In a drawer. HILARIOUS!

For Joye. :)

Here are the main photos Joye. If you want the individual pictures of each topping too? Let me know. Sorry  it wasn't working with the whole email thing.

GED

John went and bought me this GED study book I have been wanting. I am so excited! I have been a studying machine. I am absolutely determined to get this taken care of in the next couple of months. I have put it off long enough. I shouldn't have waited, well I shouldn't have dropped out in the first place but thats neither here nor there. But then life just kinda got in the way and it was never a good time to do it. This time I will stop making excuses and just do it! I have been taking the pretests in the book now, and I got to say its a little harder than I thought it would be but then again I haven't gone to school in 5 years so I should have expected a little difficulty. Though I am doing fairly well on the tests. I'm not missing that many answers. Except for Science. I had a hard time with the science test. I'll have to study that subject a little more. My goal is to be ready and go take the test by April. So keep your fingers crossed!!!! I sure will! :)

Babies anyone?

I swear all of my old friends and newer ones, all have kids. Except for me! Which I would not say is a bad thing.One day John and I will have us a baby I'm sure. Not now or any time real soon, I don't think. Not unless it's a whoops! and lets just say we are taking the absolute necessary precautions. However I wouldn't mind starting the prep that must come along with us having a baby. Well I mean my prep. John and I would like to get a house first before we even start to talk about starting a family. But I don't think it's a must have before. I just want it to feel right and whether we have a house or not I don't think would factor into our decision process. It would be a plus though, don't get me wrong but I think I'd be happy to just be able to put a roof over all of our heads, and that doesn't really have to be a house, does it? The idea of kids, is exciting, frightening, and a little overwhelming. I hope when we do have kids, whoops or planned, that all the termoil in our family is resolved. I really think that bringing a baby into the world should be a joyous time not a horrible one. We would love to share that time with all of our families, not excluding anyone. But I think that is just wishful thinking unfortunately. But who knows right? Anything can happen.

Weekend Madness

It was a fairly busy weekend, or at least it felt that way. Friday night I didn't do much of anything except for order Chinese food with my dad and penny and the rest of the fam. and stay in and play games. Scrabble and Rumicube wahoo. John went out to M & M's house to get his rings back for his scope. Saturday we went to lunch with penny and her family cause it was my Grandma Grandes 85th birthday on Tuesday so everyone went to lunch with her to celebrate that milestone. Then Sunday we went to see Avatar, which is an awesome movie by the way. I'm ready to go see it again!
The weekend was fun, wish it was a little more relaxing but thats okay, at least it wasn't drama filled like so many others. I wish I could say our lives more interesting than that but sadly it's not right now.

On another not so nice news,I think my poor toe is infected!! Over the weekend I had to deal with a swollen foot, yes I said foot not just toe, and its oozing this gross green/yellow stuff. So I called the doctor to see what he says, so now I am waiting for him to call me back. My foot seriously looks like it swallowed a grapefruit on the underneath of my foot. It's awful. It doesn't matter how I sit, try to walk, how I lay down it always hurts. I can barely hobble around on it. I look ridiculous! Not to mention it's just nasty! EEW! I will spare you the more disgusting details. Just take my word for it.

Now for the goodnews! Did you all hear? New Moon comes on DVD on March 30th! Are you excited cause I know I am! :) I know you all will be at a store that day waiting in line to get your copy just like me!

I'm not ready for that.

Today I feel good. I feel a little relief about some situations. I think my last post I was a little upset. Maybe more than a little. I hated posting such angry words, even though I meant every bit of it. I just had, had enough. I was and still am tired of people telling me how to cope/deal with things. Telling me when I needed to just get over it. I can honestly say that if I could "just get over it" I would. It seems my life has been completely consumed by our family constantly bickering. Specially over someone I feel is so juvenile and not worth our breath at the moment. I wish and hope that one day I won't feel the way I do. However I don't really see that in the near future. So far since my last post people have backed off, but then again it's only been 2 days so we'll see how it goes from here. But thank you for every one who backed off. I received some articles on forgiveness and how to move past these types of things. They were great articles. But I'm not ready for that. When I am though they will definitely come in handy. So thanks, Suzanne :) your great.
I was never a person to hold grudges, but with this one situation I can't help it. I feel she deserves it. Though I don't. I don't deserve to have the anger,resentment,frustration,petty feelings I have now. But again I don't know if I can let go of them just yet. They help me remember why I am so upset in the first place and why she deserves to be banned from my life right now. I know I can remind myself without all these horrible feelings but again I'm not ready for that.

I have realized that I have been using the phrase, "I wish" alot so I thought I could layout my wish list:

01. I WISH that I could depend on ALL of my sisters as they all have been able to depend on me at one point or another.

02. I WISH that I got more time with the kids, Hope, Savannah, Jaidan, and especially Colton because I seem him the least.

03. I WISH my mother could see she deserves more than she has.

04. I WISH I could make John happier. <- I will always strive for that. It's never good enough for me. I always need to want to make him happy or else why would he want to make me happy?

05. I WISH I could see so many of my loved ones who have passed away, just one more time.

06. I WISH there was a way to fix everything that has gone on in the last 5 1/2 years, but I know I can't.

07. I WISH I had more time to read. I have come to really enjoy reading. Who would have thunk?

08. I WISH I could lose about 40 pounds. Yes I wrote 40! Oh boy do I need to.

09. I WISH my entire family, new and old, could be happy all at once instead of someone always sad or mad about something.

10. I WISH I take away all the horrible things that Lexi has had to go through and deal with.

11.I WISH I could be ready.