School.

Okay so I went to the UCMT on Thursday to see what I qualify for in Financial aid. Well it didn't go over so well. I didn't qualify for any grants, John makes to much and while I did get some, 9,455.00 , it's not enough. I need 12,626.00 and I would have to make up the 3146.00 difference while I was going to school. If I did that by myself, my payments would be 450.00 a month. YEAH FREAKING RIGHT! Not going to happen. So they referred me to look into a student loan through Wells Fargo, its called the Education Connection Loan. But even that we would have to pay back during school and right now I can tell you we can not afford to take on another payment to anywhere, no matter how much that payment is and probably not in the near future either. This really stinks. I was so excited and it just pretty much got squashed in 2 seconds.  The 2 parts that are even more frustrating are 1) If I did night classes, financial aid covers ALL of it!!! but I can't do night classes due to the lack of sight I have at night time. They said that they have carpools that run to and from class for the night class people but its not a guarantee that it will run every day. ugh. and 2) I have been looking everyday since March for a job, and I have yet to find one, so what if I hold off on going and 7 months go by and I still have no job? I could have been done with school and onto a career with this? We would be in the same predicament we are in right now. BROKE! Barely scrapping by, not having any play money, being stuck at home doing nothing with our selves. I seriously am completely discouraged. I feel defeated and like getting this done seems like its never going to happen. :(  I won't give up but I just don't see a good out come for this any time soon and that just down right sucks!
 I'll keep you posted. and if you have any ideas let me know! I don't know what you could say for an idea, I think I have exhausted my options. But I will still take it in and listen to any advice!